Fired...for the for the fifth time in one year!
At this point, I suffer from complete anxiety disorder and possibly PTSD.
I will make these stories as brief as possible....
Last year around this time, I was "laid off" from my job because the company was doing poorly. However, there were issues between my boss and I because I had a tendancy to make tedious errors, such as typos & stuff on documents/files. No matter how hard I tried, I couldn't catch my errors. So I felt that played a role in deciding who to let go when the money became tight.
Then I got let go from a job as an Executive Assistant for basically the same reasons. Next, I found a job as an Executive Assistant which only lasted six weeks because I was told I was not "grasping things" fast enough. I was devestated. Needless to say, I felt helpless and out of control. I had discovered long before the first firing, that Admin/clerical type of work was not suited for my personal skills. Afterall, I initially wanted to go for SW and work with people with MR/DD.
And that's exactly what I did. I did VERY well. Then, after six weeks, I made a minor careless error. I left a small group of people with MRDD alone in their classroom while transferring a wheelchair bound lady to her other classroom. The room was next door to mine. I was gone under 10 seconds total. Unfortunetly, the wrong person saw my action. I admitted to my error. The result, I was FIRED! For something that small. Needless to say, these ppl with MRDD were highly functioning.
So right now, I am devestated. I keep being let go from every job I have in such a short period of time and for STUPID reasons like too many typos or whatever. I look around me and hear about ppl who never work a full week of work because they call in sick always, they come in late, they are apathetic on the job, they drink/do drugs during work hours, etc,etc. Meanwhile, I get fired for something small. May I remind you I never was WARNED about my firings; I was never told to shape up or ship out. Just a cut throat thing. With each job I have, I feel worse and worse. Every duty or task I perform is filled with anxiety. I am constantly second-guessing myself because I feel like I'm doing something wrong or not "perfectly". Now, back in the job market, I'm dreading the same thing will happen at my next job. I know to other people, I must sound like a real careless a**hole. Try to understand, I went to a prestigious college and earned my BA, so why can't I manage keeping a job? Every job I've had for the past year in a half, I've gotten fired from in a matter of a few months/weeks. During college, I managed to keep my job (a part-time job). Help! I can't deal with this stress anymore! Nothing works for me and I have given all of my jobs my best shot ! I'm also newly married, so you can imagine how much stress this has put on my marriage!
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I think your anxiety may be getting in the way of you doing a good job. You also sound depressed. I recommend going to a counselor.